My daily life

A subjectless debate

Debate at the university about the existence of God. Two speakers argue against each other’s ideological conviction. (What a shame that any ideological conviction is a personal phenomenon that, due to its exclusively subjective-personal-individual nature – cannot be debated or argued.) And still, one speaker claims that there is no God. The other is sure that there is one. The anti-God speaker is an elegantly sober, level-headed man. The pro-God speaker has the aspect of…
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Doubt

Lately I have isolated myself from my whole environment. Now I am unsure whether I am on the right path. Two years ago I decided to start studying at the university in order to obtain a degree in psychology. Ever since I’ve been living among textbooks, and my time is literally scheduled until the last second. In it, there is no room for friends, social gatherings, going outs, and such. I barely log in to…
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Heroism

I’d like to help people. I feel the inner urge to be there for others. And I think big things. Like writing a self-help book full of clever sayings and eternal truths. And then I realize how fake I am: while I nurture heroic ideas in my desires and mind, I don’t even know the name of my immediate neighbors. Today, accidentally, I found out that she had been a nurse. Now a retired, soft-spoken, old…
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Mask

Mask

I noticed that in company, especially in company of strangers, most people do not show their real face, but put on and play sham roles, hold the shield of imaginary personalities before themselves that they believe to be funny, marketable, fashionable, and trendy. It is though very easy to discriminate someone playing a role from being themself. Interestingly, these put-on roles and sham personalities are always much less interesting, original, and attractive than the real…
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